Monday, June 30, 2008

surprising delights


At the risk of sounding fantastically gay, I love martinis, specifically chocolatinis. So imagine my delight to discover J. Alfred Prufrocks, a quaint little martini bar in downtown Grand Island, NE of all places. They have a full menu selection of martinis at only $5 a piece! I had snickers martini, a chocolatini and a wonderful annual reunion with Sarah, Lynnett and Jessica.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

henry doorly zoo




Zoos make me uncomfortable, especially after seeing the movie 'Happy Feet' but it's easier to stomach the Henry Doorly Zoo because of all of the open environments. Plus it was my first time there with both nieces.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

shock-a-locka baby

When my niece Hayleigh was born 12 years ago, I spent a lot more time at home. She was the reason for me to come home more often. Hayleigh now has a two year old sister, Marley. I feel bad because I've only visited Marley twice now. However, these are different times and different circumstances. It was delightful to get the opportunity to watch Marley at a dance. She imitates her big sister in her dance style. It's so adorable.

the holding pattern


Flying is one of the most vulnerable positions a person can put themselves in. Sure, it's one of the safest modes of transportation statisically speaking but it's also the most 'in-someone-else's hands' as well. If you don't like the way a car-ride or bus-ride is going, you can always have them pull over. Hell, you can even swim for it (although the odds would be against you) on a boat ride. But in the air, there's really no getting off.
Today, for the first time, I really really thought that we were not going to make it. We were coming into Denver from Portland. It was a perfect flight and I had been watching the Justice League cartoons the whole way and I actually thought, "I wish this flight would be a little longer." Well, then I noticed that the plane pretty much turned and then turned again. The captain came on the intercom and said that we were in a holding pattern. His reasoning didn't give me much comfort. He couldn't explain why. He even said it was nice weather down there. He said we had been given orders to remain in the air for another hour but we only had a half an hour's worth of fuel left. Scary shit. He also said that we may have to go to Laramie, WY instead. Even scarier shit.
Luckily, we broke out of my first holding pattern after about ten minutes which didn't allow me enough time to compose my last will and testament. It turns out that Denver was short two landing strips and we weren't priority. I still like to fly but it did make me realize how easily it could all go wrong.

Friday, June 27, 2008

r.c. in the backyard

This was the first Riot Cop performance that I've been to outside. As many shows as I've seen of theirs over the past several years and this was the first outdoors one. Crazy. It's also the first show that I've seen them walk out on.

Someone started talking some shit about something they do not fully understand and were not even willing to defend their stance so Riot Cop walked after two songs. It was sad but completely understandable. Stupid fucking people that just want to stir up shit wreak so much havoc on a potentially good time.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

check me out

I don't trust the corporate media at all but for work, I was told that I had to say something about one of my clients for a fluff piece that a local station was running. Check out the interview.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

the purple room

When I first toured Portland before moving here, I went to Powell's Bookstore to apply for a job. The place is HUGE. They have maps throughout the store to guide you through the five floors of new and used books. At the time, they were hiring for a supervisor and paying $21/hour. I just about shit when I saw that. My assumption was that jobs in Portland just paid a helluva lot more. It wasn't until I moved here that I realized Portland had one of the highest unemployment rates in the nation.

Still, I kept applying at the place. Coming from working in a book, music and video store, I figured I could at least get an interview and I always get a job that I interview for. However, I now believe that you have to sign over your first-born to get an interview there. A job there probably requires your soul.

Despite my feelings of rejection, I still go to Powells. It's a great place to just wander around. Plus a lot of cute guys are there and it's near the former gay ghetto. Today, I was down in the area so I spent my lunch break (and then some) in the purple room. The purple room is their history room and also home to their GLBTQ section. I could spend all day just purusing those shelves. And that's just one of their eight rooms.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

spreading the word

For me, activism has been about 75% campaigning for causes and informing the masses. I began in 1999 or 2000 when Nebraskans were voting on an anti-queer rights bill. Some friends and I made a flyer that said, "All in favor of Amendment ???, raise your hand." And then on the flyer was a picture of Hitler doing his hand salute. We put the flyers everywhere. Unfortunately (and not surprisingly), the bill passed almost unanimously. Still, it felt good to at least try to get the word out that not all of us supported this piece of bigotry.

I still enjoy raising people's conscious and awareness. Today, I helped do so by showing 'Small Town Gay Bar' at the Red & Black Cafe. While there, I met a guy (for the first time) from Bakersfield (I think) California. He said I looked familiar and ended up recognizing me from an Indymedia video. It's nice to know I'm making a difference (or at least an impression).

Saturday, June 21, 2008

grin 'n tonic

The Eclectic Bastards had their second to last show for a while today at the Tonic Lounge. I've never been to Tonic although I've heard the name thrown around quite a bit. It's a nice place. The stage area was typical and reminded me of several bars in Europe. The lounge part was where we spent most of the night. It's nice to go to a place and not have to scream over music to have a conversation. Plus the drinks were pretty decently priced and very well proportioned. I had a big glass of Raspberry Kiss for $5.50. I'd highly recommend the place for seeing a show or just for hanging out.

Friday, June 20, 2008

this past week


I haven't written this week but I have been doing new things. Unfortunately, I would have rather not had to do any of it.

I just returned from a funeral at a LDS church in Vancouver, WA. The son of one of my co-workers and friends passed away on Saturday night. I didn't find out until I went to work on Monday morning. Much of my week has been spent thinking of her and her family. We passed the hat around at work and raised a good amount of money for her which was nice. I wanted to do more for her though and I had the opportunity as I picked up her work in addition to my own duties. I was more than willing to do it. In fact, I insisted and I wouldn't let anyone else help. I've been her backup at work and she e-mailed me on Monday and asked me to do a few duties.

I never know what to do when someone dies. This time it was exceptionally hard because her son was twelve years old and died in his sleep by unknown causes.

I just wanted to let everyone know why I haven't been writing.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

parading around




In the five years that I’ve attended Pride, I’ve never sat and watched the parade. I’ve crashed it twice but I never really took it in. Today, I did just that and I surprisingly loved it. I think that the highlight for me was seeing one of the developmentally disabled adults who is also trans in the parade. That made me proud.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

riot cop's return


I missed these guys.

Riot Cop started performing again this weekend. This was my first time seeing them together since we got back from Europe and the first time with their new bassist Craig. I worked the merch again. It felt good to be back.

mustering up Pride

I've really really been trying this week to put a positive spin on Pride NW. I know people who really really love it. However, those people aren't gays or lesbians. Yet this year, I was actually able to enjoy it when I was down there. I wrote a report-back about it on indymedia. There are a lot of good organizations that show up at Pride and it's nice to see gatherings of queers outside the bars.

I also signed up for the Portland AIDS Walk which happens in October. They will be giving me a webpage soon so I can take donations on-line and I will be hitting you all up for money then.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

daemonology


In the Golden Compass and its sequels, author Philip Pullman introduces the idea of daemons. He explains that peoples' daemons are like their souls living outside their body in animal form. Daemons are essentially pets which are empathetically linked to their humans. Maybe that's why I liked the series so much.

I completely relate to a pet being a reflection of a person's soul and humanity and I think other people do too. Why else would there be the "Lord, please help me to be the person that my cat/dog thinks I am" bumperstickers? I know it's a joke but I believe there's a bit of truth in it as well. It sounds ridiculous but the therapy that pets can provide mentally and/or physically ill people is well documented. Pets enrich people's lives. Now, I'm not saying that people are hollow and soul-less without pets but pets are a way for people to wear their heart on their sleeve.

I can also relate to Pullman's idea that it is painful for a human to distance themselves from their daemon. Today, I had to leave Dean at the vet so he could get his hips x-rayed. It was heart-wrenching to do. The doctor speculated that his limping could be the result of arthritis or nerves being pinched in his hips. Fortunately, the x-rays proved otherwise. It turns out that he has a minor tear in his muscles which will heal after a few weeks of not running off-leash. The vet, who was really awesome, recommended swimming for a healthy exercise alternative for Dean. So we will be visiting the Sandy River frequently over the next several weeks under doctor's orders. Plus it will be good just to get away with my daemon.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

a clear difference


When I hooked up my flat-screen monitor last month and viewed my pictures on it, I saw the flaws of my Fujifilm Fine Pix A700. I couldn’t get it out of my head and every picture that I took seemed inferior to me. Once I start obsessing over something, it’s best that I just take care of it right away or I will be pining and whining about it until I do. Yesterday, my new camera, a Panasonic Lumix DMC TZ4 came in. I didn’t get the chance to play with it but I took it out for a test drive today.

It’s a lot more technical than I am used to as far as cameras go. I usually just have the point-and-click cameras that don’t leave a lot of room to do much else other than turn the flash on and off or make it a night setting. This camera has firework, beach, candlelight, pet, baby, sports, sunset, snow and underwater settings and many more. It also just takes a better picture.

Check the photos above. The first one was taken with my Fujifilm. The second was with my Panasonic, my new favorite piece of technology.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

comic book guy

Comic books were probably my most frequent and consistent purchases as a kid. I wish I could say I was into the Superhero comics but they usually ran in a series and it was difficult to keep up with them unless you visited the comic book store regularly. No, for me, it was Archie, Hot Stuff, Groo (most of you probably won't know who that is) and some others for me. Pretty lame but then again, aren't all comic books.

I used to love going to Geano's Barber Shop in Hartington, NE because he would usually have some great comics on the coffee table while I waited for my turn. Well, today, I went to get my haircut but stopped at Excalibur Comics before I went there. In continuing with my obsession with Poison Ivy, I found a comic about her. I was hoping for some art that would inspire a T-shirt design for me because I'd love a Poison Ivy/Eco-Terrorist shirt. Unfortunately, it didn't have any good graphic. However, I did add a few more dork points to my nerd scale by purchasing my first comic book in maybe 20 years.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

the dusk of june 8th






I love a dusk walk on a Sunday evening. Tonight, I took a new route and really tested out my camera's night settings along with my gorillapod.

Saturday, June 7, 2008

tales from the monkeywrench


I went to my first Monkeywrench Cafe today. The Monkeywrench Cafe is a fundraising event held at a household where food is ordered and served and people tell stories of their previous activist work. While it may not sound enthralling, it certainly was. I almost didn't go because of other plans but decided at the last minute to accompany my roommates there and I am so glad I did.

We all have conversations and we all watch movies but how often do we gather around and listen to one person tell stories? Not often enough, that's for sure. The oral tradition is lost on our culture and I enjoyed this opportunity to revive it. I can't wait for the next one!

Friday, June 6, 2008

glamarchy now!

During my final year of college, I had to do a radio show to complete my major in Journalism. I put it off until my final year because I really didn't want to do it. So, when I was forced, I opted for the 12pm-1pm, Monday, Wednesday, Friday shift at the college station, playing blues and jazz. I ended up loving it and wishing I had been doing to all throughout college.

Today, my friend Atomic and I revived 'Glamarchy Now' which was our Indymedia web radio show that we stopped doing in 2006 when I went to Europe the first time. I love Atomic's initiative as he just set up the time and date and said, "We're doing the show." It felt so good to start up again. Now I don't know why we've waited so long. It's not really a new thing but I've done three Indymedia web-radio shows and this is the only one I've ever gone back to.

a bit long in the fang

They say "age is just a number but the physical effects of aging are very real." I agree more with the saying, "You're only as old as you feel," because somedays you can feel ten years younger and some days you feel a slight bit older than you actually are.

I occasionally think (okay, I often think) in a younger mindset than I am actually in so it's jarring to me to have my 32 years come around and kick my body's ass through muscle ache, exhaustion, joints hurting or hair loss. I don't think getting older is a bad thing. I welcomed my 30s with open arms. I just need to adapt my lifestyle to my body's changing needs.

I've also had issue with Dean getting older. I still call him a pup. I know he's graying around the muzzle but he still has a pup mentality most of the time. However, yesterday he started limping really hard on one leg. He's been doing it for a while but it usually would fade away after three minutes of walking. Yesterday, we walked to the library and I practically dragged him. It was odd because he always drags me. Anyway, I was so worried about him that I made a last minute vet appointment and ditched the last hour of work for him. It turns out they will have to sedate him next week and do an X-Ray. It's either a pinched nerve, arthritis, hip problems or a combination. Poor guy.

Monday, June 2, 2008

the kindness of strangers

There is a stark difference between ‘city folk’ and ‘country folk.’ City folk seem a lot more jaded and sarcastic. If you could turn sarcasm into energy, you could keep cities running on that alone. Everything does move slower in the country and it obviously has an impact on the disposition of those who live there. I feel it whenever I go back home. People are just so much easier going and seemingly more willing to lend a hand.

I got to meet the people whose land we were on and Dean got his first and hopefully last taste of an electric fence as he tried to chase a cow. Dumbass. The people were pretty cool, perhaps a bit flaky though. They did agree to let us leave the RV on the land for a bit and the guy is fixing the radiator for a small fee. The lady (I have to use genders because I don’t know names) had to head to town anyway so she gave us a ride home with the possessions that we absolutely needed. We were dropped off downtown and I had Dean so I couldn’t take the bus with everyone else. I had to walk home with Dean, my pillow and a bucket of dog food. I know I got some funny looks but screw the city folk and their attitude.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

misadventures




My most memorable trip in my two years at McCook Community College was when our choir went to a regional recital in Minneapolis. It was during the winter of 1996 and a record setting snow and ice storm. We got to Minneapolis okay, only having to stop unexpectedly once in Iowa when the choir teacher was positive short bus windows were going to break from the cold. Coming back, we broke down in Stuart, Iowa. Hell had frozen over and they renamed it Iowa. It sounds bad but it was one of the most fun trips of my life up until then.

In Europe, our
break down at the Czech/German border was a delay in the schedule but it was also a welcomed break in routine. You see a pattern here?

On the way back from our RV trip to the coast, we broke down. We broke down so many times I lost count. Steam was pouring out of the crack in the radiator and filling the RV up. We got to see a lot more of the coast and I think it's probably one of the most beautiful places to break down. Due to these delays, we ended up getting the chance to walk along hike Oswald Park, walk Cannon Beach, play a game of soccer, see Klootchy Creek park, meet some interesting folks at a gas station outside Seaside, talk to a nice highway patrol person and camp an extra night at a farm. It wasn't the most ideal of situations but I did enjoy myself. And people say I've turned into a pessimist...